spring is finally here + i think it saved me. saved me from myself + all the tendencies coming along with a typical midwestern winter. the pain of cold is like knives. hard steel slicing + slashing away at any + all hope for relief. the sharpness never dulled, endless really, but here we are ... at a new beginning. again.
i went for a hike today hoping i could arrest the constant spiralings of my mind. the woods crackled + snapped under each step as i made my way to the river below. evidence of life peeking out here + there amidst the decaying brownness, until i was greeted with the loveliest carpet of green speckled with delicate yellow. it was here where i made a small promise to myself. it's the same promise i make every year. also the same promise i break ... every year. but today was different. because i decided to stay. stop running away from it all. stay to make peace with, to embrace this place i have chosen to be in life.
as i headed towards my car, what struck me was the sound of winds crashing against the tallest tree branches. + wouldn't you know it, with closed eyes, i could have sworn i was next to the ocean. a small gift to me.
i went for a hike today hoping i could arrest the constant spiralings of my mind. the woods crackled + snapped under each step as i made my way to the river below. evidence of life peeking out here + there amidst the decaying brownness, until i was greeted with the loveliest carpet of green speckled with delicate yellow. it was here where i made a small promise to myself. it's the same promise i make every year. also the same promise i break ... every year. but today was different. because i decided to stay. stop running away from it all. stay to make peace with, to embrace this place i have chosen to be in life.
as i headed towards my car, what struck me was the sound of winds crashing against the tallest tree branches. + wouldn't you know it, with closed eyes, i could have sworn i was next to the ocean. a small gift to me.
