Change is hard for everyone ... I certainly don't embrace it, being a creature of habit. But it is part and parcel to life. What used to make me laugh, now makes me cringe. What used to be so important, now is trivial. I used to
love love love the idea of being "in love," now I think it's really just the Devil's way of screwing with you. On the other hand, I love discovering what once was off-putting, is now embraceable. Kinda like spicy food. I mean, who really liked the initial sensation of burning tongue? But over time, the pain becomes part of the pleasure ... weird.
So, I am forced to accept fluctuations in relationships. That's hard to digest. I know I'm not to regret anything in life, since it's all about learning and growing, but I do. I deeply wish I could take back every hurtful word, action towards another person, including myself (really, the crap we tell ourselves is pretty debilitating).
Alright, gonna have to continue this later.
